Really Rough Draft

The Latest
a REALLY Rough Draft of a song Im writing

I open my mouth to sing,
and you can see right through me.
I open my eyes to see,
And Im invisible
I look around me to take in my surroundings
And I disapear
And then the words begin...

I'm praying for change
And I'm praying for a chance
I wanna see the world go round.
I wanna watch it all go down.
I wish you were here,
and I wish you werent
But most of all,
I'm trying not to drown

Im praying for you,
And Im praying for me,
I wanna hear you say my name,
I wanna see you feel my shame
I wanna hear your reasons
for leaving me the short rope
I need to hear your voice
to give me just a little bit of hope.

Cuz I need a chance to show you
I need to get to know you
My feelings show but
You'll never know
How much I care

Cus Im praying for understanding
and Im praying for you to hand me
a clue
I wanna know your near me
I wanna know what you need
I wanna know you

My feelings show,
But you'll never know
How much I care

Bailee Sleeping

My Quirks

Quirky Things About Esther Pester *a.k.a. ♥Ster♥
♥ I sometimes write poetry and I dont know where the feelings came from that made me write it - it can get scary sometimes lol ♥ I love it when guys act nerdy - like when they get embarassed easily, or they know weird things that no one else knows ♥ I sing to myself when im mad ♥ I dance when Im alone... ♥ I love to run....and run....and run - it gives me time to think ♥ I play guitar - and write my own music ♥ I write song lyrics and poetry ♥ More than half of the stuff I write is hidden in places no one will ever find ♥ I sometimes wonder if Im kidding myself, or if I really am just...this weird lol ♥ I know how to tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue, and uwrap a starburst in my mouth without ripping the wrapper ♥ My goal in life is to always have faith...and my best friend's name is Faith...does that count? haha ♥ I actually LIKE school...and I LOVE doing homework. Yeah - Shoot me because I know you hate me for saying that but I DONT CARE ♥ I think its cute when old people kiss and hold hands, specially my parents, but they arent old ♥ I like talking about personal stuff with my friends, and believe it or not - my family ♥ I have amazing dreams that I wish i could paint or at least explain to someone...but i cant! ♥ I have faked sick to stay home and take a super long shower - good stress reliever ♥ I have more nicknames then freckles on my body...which is quite a few if you've never looked lol ♥ I fish for compliments sometimes...who doesnt? ♥ I have many talents, but one I like particularly is that I can read peoples emotions and help to solve problems or just cheer someone up lol ♥ I love colors...all of them. Im just an artist, what can i say? ♥ Music is my passion, and Anthony is my love...Which one comes first on my priority list? Well passion would...but I am going to have to say that I would give up music for Anthony, but I wouldnt give up Anthony for music...so theres your answer ♥ I have VERY early childhood memories ♥ I love to tell stories of my past...even if no one wants to hear them or has already heard them lol ♥ My older siblings used to tell me to run laps around the house outside (when I was being annoying) and I'd actually go do it. So Weird... ♥ I think the weirdest things are funny. Like the fact that I get Gym (physical Education) credit at this new school, just for breastfeeding...hah♥ People say Im like my mom - and I dont mind. Im flattered to be following her footsteps ♥ My husband says I always have to be right, and I say "No I dont" to still be right!! Maybe I do...♥ I love to write, and sometimes I get carried away and write weird stuff....like right now lol ♥ If I think of a song and cant remember the name, I HAVE to figure it out....or if I can remember the face of a person and not their name....Or if I cant figure out how to change a font color....I guess what Im trying to say is...Im a probem solver at heart ♥ I like to overwork myself and feel it in my muscles the next day, just so I know something is changing ♥ If running were drugs...Id have to go to rehab permanently ♥ I'll think something over and over in my head before I say it, and then when I say it, I think I already did - or I will say it twice on accident because I think I didnt yet...get what im saying? ♥ I nod my headand say yes even when Im not listening - its a habbit ♥ I love to read books and pretend Im the person Im reading about ♥ I am in love with the tvshow Gilmore Girls, and Scrubs. The mom on GG and the main guy in Scrubs remind me of myself ♥ I love my husband, even when he is acting like a disgusting boy - im glad he feels comfotable around me. Sometimes a little too comfortable lol ♥ The internet is great. Just so you know. ♥ I listen to some songs that totally suck, just because they make me laugh...really hard ♥ I cant be mean to people, unless I have a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY good reason...

and my Last ♥ I am amazed with everything. How everything works, How everything lives...But most of all - How I got to where I am today. I wouldnt change a thing.
Life is good...Keep on Keepin' On, and Life will stay sweet ♥
♥With Love, Ster