Lately, I am truly happy.
My music is going wonderfully. I start recording in ONE WEEK! Yikes...
School is easier than ever, and quite enjoyable, honestly. I love to learn new things. I can't wait for fall classes to get started. Two summer classes is not enough!
I've been seeing a lot of my family lately, and I absolutely love it. I miss them too much and forget how dear they are to me until I see them all together, laughing and talking, re-connecting. We shouldn't have to reconnect. We should just be able to be...as always...a family.
Bailee is brilliant, bright, and happy and she makes me love the world even more each day, just because she's in it. She's the closest to perfect I've seen yet, and how much I care for her. She really is dear to me, and to many others.
Words cannot explain a mother's love for her child. I won't even try.
Just know that she is the most important thing in my life, and everything else is not even close.
I love and cherish her so so so much.
Thank you, God, for sending her to me.
Thank you so much.
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SO, new things in my life:
I've made some changes...
since my last post:
Tyler and I are "officially" together for those of you who care. We plan on staying that way, and so far it's going great. Bailee absolutely adores him, and he absolutely adores her, and the rest of the family, which is GREAT! Right now, we just fit. I'm not about to complain.
I decided what I'm doing after John Wood. I want to go to Carbondale (Southern Illinois University Carbondale) and take advantage of their music business major. I hear their music program is very good, one of the best in the area besides Western and some music schools in Chicago, of course. It gives me something to shoot for, something to look forward to. I'm excited, motivated, and somewhat anxious/nervous. I have plenty of time to figure it all out. Maybe by then I'll have some more money coming in from my music "career" to help fund such a move.
New this week: I quit soda. Cold turkey. (I know what you're thinking. "What?!!?! Esther quit Soda? But what about "Mrs. Pepper"? )Well, one week I was drinking one or two(okay, maybe four)a day, and then one day I decided: I am not going to drink soda anymore. That was five days ago and I haven't had one since. I am working on the "No Fast Food" rule, but that one is harder to quit cold turkey when you are as busy as I am sometimes. Especially when your busy-ness includes a lot of driving to and from, up and down Broadway, while hungry. I've only had it once in the last week though, so I'm doing good. I've also been trying to spend more time outside. I take Bailee out to play at least once a day, sometimes more if she asks nicely. We're working on her saying please. She tends to say it when she knows she can't do something without getting in trouble, like while climbing out of her high chair.
She's too cute.
But anyways, I'm trying better habits. Wish me luck on my endeavors.
Something not so new:
I've been writing a lot lately. I went through a phase of neglecting my writing skills. Well, not any more my friends! Prepare to read/hear a lot more. Writing: whether in the form of words on paper (or computer, in this case) or song, prepare for new creations. There will be more. It's about time I updated, don't you think?
Thanks for reading. I just felt like I ought to refresh your memories of what I'm up to. So, here you go.
Love, Esther
P.s. Something I thought of today...Just read it, let it sink in, and ponder. That's what I did. Minus the "read" and add a "write", anyways.
Those who love, lose.
Those who lose, hurt.
Those who hurt, feel.
Those who feel, know.
Those who know, want.
Those who want, need.
Those who need, search.
Those who search, strive.
Those who strive, receive.
Those who receive, thank.
Those who thank, share.
Those who share, give.
Those who give, know.
Those who know, love.
Every one of us is at one of these points in our lifetime. The question is, which point are you at, and what can you do to move on, and continue the cycle? You can be at more than one point at a time, in different areas in your life. The trick is to keep the flow going without skipping over the important parts. Only then can you understand the true meaning of "moving on". Learning. Growing. Achieving. Being Yourself.
Who are you, though?
It's a good question that even I am not sure I know my own answer to...
My quest?
To figure it out.
