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"You are Beatiful"

Photo By Rachel Mardis

Chicago, Illinois

"Colorful Personality"

Drawn By: Timmi Moore

Effects By: Esther Dearwester

"Dreams of Fire"

By: Esther Dearwester

So does anyone even read my posts? Because there are no comments and I havent gotten any feedback....My writing is going to the wind...

Esther

hmm...not quite sure

La Di Da, Just another entry from the "Me" Files......

The world has changed, my friends.
We used to be able to be who we were really, with no questions asked, no problems evolving out of ridiculous drama. Now, we spend all our time looking back on "the good 'ole days", when really, they weren't that long ago. We just forget things so quickly while we are distracted by the real world...real life. I dont wish I could go back in time - That wouldnt change anything. I wish people would be people...not things. Or "characters" - EAch person made up in their own mind, and played out by the body they live in. Its like we are living in a theater. You hold in silent screams of annoyance while wearing a smiling mask over your face, trying to be who you are really...inside. But its hard when everyone expects you to be so different. So...perfect. And you want to just tell them all to mind their bussiness, but then you remember that you asked them for their opinion...so you just sit and listen, smiling, wishing you never had. Your mind starts to wander, and suddenly, you are somewhere else, someone...different. Someone real, created by your soul - not pushed and pulled into shape by the world, or the people in it. Someone alive. If only you could stay there...




.....Okay so I have no idea where this came from, I just started writing and it all came out. I guess my unconscious mind has taken over once again. But anyways....Thats only a sample. Love ya, Esther

This is me messing around with Rebecca's camera before I got my hair highlighted. I'm not sure if we managed to get any "after" pictures, but I'll try to find some. It's pretty noticeable. If you have seen me since these pictures were taken, then you can compare the real deal! Love you all, EstherPester

baby Bailee

She's the most Beautiful thing ever! We love her so much! I'm typing with one hand, holding her with the other - so details will be quick.

8 lbs 8 oz. - 19.5 inches - born @ 5:39pm
16 hrs labor....a lil over an hour pushing time.

Love you all!

So.....I've currently figured out that you get alot of time to think when you are 9 months pregnant and waiting to pop. Here are some of the things I've been thinking:

* My neices and nephews are going to be role models to my little girl...and Im happy to say that I am perfectly okay with that. In fact - I'm looking forward to seeing what they'll teach her...whether they mean to or not ;)

* Having a little girl makes you attracted to pink - no matter how much you try to avoid it, or deny that its your--dare I say it--FAVORITE COLOR?!

* Drawing is a very good way to pass time. Well, mostly thinking of what to draw - and then the drawing part doesnt take that long - It's the planning part that keeps you busy. Or at least thats how it goes for me...

* Cooking is a very good way to get over the famous "nesting instinct" when you can't unpack anything in your new house because walls arent painted and boxes are too heavy. So sad...

* Fitting into pre-pregnancy clothes while you are stll pregnant makes you feel like a million bucks....even if its just sweatpants.

* Carrying around 30+ extra pounds for a few months can get VERY, VERY frusterating. Especially when the 30 lbs keeps changing shape, so you run into things unexpectedly - Therefor having bright new bruises to show off weekly...sometimes daily.

* Becoming a mom makes you an automatic record keeper...Which is hard to do with no camera - But I think I'll manage.

* Scrapbooking is my favorite thing to do right now, Which is funny because I'm not scrapbooking. I'm looking at my boxes of scrapbooking supplies hidden behind things in the front porch, contemplating on how to get them down- And never coming up with a safe solution.

* I've found that I miss writing, so Im going to do it more often. Finally - Something useful to do with my time...........as if I was free before?

* And last of all, with all of this thinking - I've found that I think too much. :)

EstherPester

Theres a First for Everything

Hey Everyone! So I got my own blog, in order to add to the family blog. I've never done this before - other than little stuff on "myspace" - but I guess there is a first for everything! I'll keep you all posted with news, dates, pictures, and other interesting stuff as often as I can. Love you all! Enjoy -

EstherPester